Funny how when you see similar faces in the crowd, you think about how back then you guys used to hug & laugh together when you see each other. Now? It’s like we never shared a conversation. We never had that bond. Now, it’s as if we never had that friendship & I’m just another face in that crowd of people. Things happen for a reason, but sometimes I think back, wonder, & ask myself what happened that cause things to end up as if it were only a dream.
I see familiar faces & remember the great memories & past we shared. Only to remember that they are PAST memories, but as I walk on and move forward I smile to know it happened…
Funny, how people can be so close at one moment & the next moment they are total complete strangers.
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So, I was texting T after school when I was waiting for my uncle to come get me. The conversation was alright, but when I started to get home, I started to feel a bit uneasy. Just asking him about how his day was, he pretty much answered me in the most bitchiest tone ever. T NEVER did that to me before unless he was pretty mad at me or something. Honestly? Ever since I came back, he hasn’t been the one I grew up with. I told him that since I came back, he hasn’t been acting like himself. He asked me what I meant, but I didn’t want to explain it to him. Then he told me that that was pretty dumb, & that honestly stung. From there, I felt like I don’t mean a thing to him anymore. We’ve been getting distant and every since I came back, ever since the break-up with you-know-who, T & I haven’t talked like before. He isn’t the guy I love, the guy I grew up with, the guy that I trusted my heart to, the guy that I depended on, the guy my family loves so much, the guy that’s parents & sibling love me, the guy that always manages to make me happy, the guy that knows me inside & out, more importantly, the guy I called my best friend & my everything. We barely talk, & when we do, he ends up not replying back anymore. It’s starting to make me feel worst than I ever felt, but I don’t know how to even tell him without making him mad. I don’t even know how to talk to him without him ending out to stop talking to me. We can’t have our normal non-stop random conversations we always had. I miss him & I really need him more than ever, but what can I do when he’s all about this one girl he loves? or his other best friends. I feel like I don’t fit in that category in his life anymore & it hurts. Everyone knows that without him, I can’t function. I know it’s pretty stupid to base your life on one person, but that’s how my life is. My life is based on everything of ONE person. I can’t explain it, but he keeps my life on a medium with the whole complications that come my way.. I just don’t know what to do. I’m having a problem with the one person that I CANNOT live without, & I need to talk to my best friend about it. But they are the same person >-<
x3carolx:
can you see me break dancing? Steph asked me if i wanted to break dance with her… and i busted out laughing! THAT’S LIKE ASKING ME TO BREAK MUH BACK! AHHAH. <3
If you don’t want to, you can just say so. Geeez ! It was just a question if you wanted to join me & leann’s part but I guess not ! HMMMPH !
